I was never a runner and I have always hated it. ALWAYS. I was always that fat girl to be last to finish the 1 mile run in high school and I cussed and complained the whole way. I HATED TO RUN!
I realized I hated it because it was so damn hard for me! My lungs burned, my legs cramped, and I felt like I was going to die if I didn't stop running every 10 feet. Last year I started running and training my WHOLE body to run, legs, heart, arms, lungs...you name it. I LOVE running now..
I am not a Zumba girl and I only dance when I have had a few glasses of wine in me and then sure, I will awkwardly shake my hips and butt in public. I cannot workout at home. It is way too easy to give up and sit on the couch or to just not do it. I need to be in the gym or out running to stay motivated.
First, I will say that I have become aware of just how awful my stomach and bowels are. I tell you...if you can keep your gallbladder. KEEP IT! Be THANKFUL you have it. I have had so many digestive issues since having it out. Granted, I did absolutely need it taken out BUT it has changed me so much.
I had a pretty big scare a few weeks ago and I will spare you the gory details ( it wasn't pretty, but if you need to know I will answer through email.) I was told by my doctor that I needed to make some changes NOW before anything a lot more serious happened and to stop ignoring the things my body was telling me. So, I am listening. I am finding things that work for ME and I am doing my absolute best to stick to it. I'm pretty over being mentally and physically unhealthy.
Most importantly I am really tired of being mentally unhealthy. It seems like life has taken a huge poop on us lately and thats just life. I have felt so depressed and worthless for almost 6 months now and I'm done! I don't want to feel this way anymore. Even with all the crap thats happened I still have so much to be thankful for, its just been a little hard to see through the fog.
Bring in the running. I have been running again for a few weeks now and I have felt so much better!!! Oh MY GOSH...in the past I have taken Zoloft for depression and I do not want to take medication for something I can treat naturally. Running is my ME time. My time to talk to GOD and just let out my fears, worries, and frustrations. I leave it on the pavement and keep moving on. I am so much happier and I am getting so much better at running. I am learning so much and I am so excited to keep going. I stopped telling myself 'I CAN'T' and I am telling myself :
"YOU CAN, KEEP TRYING!!"
Its amazing what you can accomplish when you stop telling yourself you can't and start telling yourself that you CAN. I am so motivated, so ready to try and TRY harder each time. I WILL be happier, healthier and I won't stop trying till I am there.
People on Facebook have noticed my progress and made comments about how they wish they had my motivation. Its almost annoying to hear that because its not motivation really, its a desire to be a healthier person, mentally and physically. It bothers me to hear people complain about their current weight and not make any effort at all to change it. People that are absolutely capable to makes changes and they don't. Drives me nuts. Whats keeping them from trying?! I have a lot on my plate right now. A LOT and yet here I am....making time for me-myself because I DESERVE it and working my ass off! I never regret a workout. NEVER. But I always REGRET NOT doing a workout.
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I'm done feeling sorry for myself. I'm ready to be healthy. Its my time to be HAPPY.
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I have recently started running, also. I was the SAME way in high school and I am so glad I am taking this step now. I am training for the Rugged Maniac this summer!
Cassie- I want to do a Rugged Maniac so bad!! There is one here in Charleston in March or April and i wish I would be ready by then! Good luck with it and have fun!!!
Luckily the one I am doing is at the end of August so I have plenty of time to get ready... hopefully! That color run looks AWESOME! May have to try to find one of those, too!
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